Monday, April 30, 2007

Just an Update

The end of school is drawing near and even though I really DO NOT want to admit it, I think I'm going to miss Ashland. Tonight I went to the last Newman Night, which is just like a catholic study group, and we played sand volleyball. It was so much fun, especially since I haven't played volleyball in quite some time. The first game we played was with everyone and then after that a few of us who are pretty decent at volleyball, stayed and played some more.

My dad just called me today and said that they came to a final agreement on the value of my car. I was pretty happy with it... considering I made 4000 dollars on the whole deal! I think I am going to go ahead and look at some Mazda's and if none of those work out I am going to go to a car auction... - not a repo auction, but an auction where dealers go and buy cars for their lot and such... you can get good cars for really cheap-

I went home this past weekend, unexpectidly, and it was SO much fun. I got home on Saturday, around 3:00, and I immediately made hamburger helper because I was starving. Then I took a nap and went to Tricia's parent's 25th wedding anniversary party. It was the first time since new years that I had something to drink, and it was a blast. Everyone went back to Tricia's house to spend the night where we witnessed some REALLY interesting, and kind of disgusting, conversations between tricia, her parents, and aunt and uncle.

ONLY 9 MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL! - i cannot wait to go home for summer break and then leave for camp a month after that... it's going to be shit loads of fun. Every day that passes and every day it gets closer to the end of school, I realize how many freakin awesome people I've met here... - Janel, Molly, Leeanne, Brian - just to name a few. Hopefully I will find people just as good as them at WSU, but then again, I do have Meghann 10 minutes away at UD :)

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Accident - UPDATE

Well, I found out a week ago that the insurance declared my car totaled. Let's be honest, I was not all that sad about it. My mom was a lot more disappointed and sad about it than I was... typical mother :) The insurance company offered us about 9200 dollars but my car is worth way more than that, so needless to say.. we didn't accept. Dad said the least we would take is about 10,500 dollars... I'm worried though because even though they declared it totaled, that was with the 9200 dollar amount. If they do go with what my says it's worth (12,500) then I'm afriad they won't total and then go ahead and repair it. It's not that I don't like my car, it is pretty unique - i've never seen one like it - I just want to get a new car. (selfish? perhaps...) Right now I'm either looking at spending NOT a lot of money and getting a '97 Honda Accord or spending a little more money and getting a Mazda 6. I love how Mazda's look and they are much more sporty than the Accords, although not as good with gas. I'm also debating on if I should get my car before I got to camp or wait until I get back. I'm hesitant to wait until I get back (Aug. 17) because I think my friends and I are going to LA or San Francisco for a few days right after I get home and then school starts a week after that. So... not much time to find a car and buy it - and I need a car to drive to school since I'm living with Amber and Nick. At the same time, I don't just want my car sitting around all summer. Geeezzzzzz.... i hate these stupid decisions. Well, I had a LONG day - getting up at 5:15am and having class and work straight until 8:45pm with only about a 2 hr break is definitely not my forte... if only it were summer!

Monday, April 16, 2007

weekend extravaganza

i had a pretty fun and interesting weekend... to say the least. i left school with lindsey and got home about 8:00 friday night after we picked up katrina winner from ONU. i went to ryan's house later that night and we didn't really do much except put sticky notes all over a girls car. after we got back from that ryan and i sat in his basement and talked until 1:30am about stupid shit. overall, the night was actually kind of fun - sad, i know.

saturday i had my lifeguard recertification class which i was hoping to get out of early to go to the ben folds concert... however, it went all the way until 5 - luckily i passed all the tests. i went straight home, loaded my stuff in my car and headed to the concert. it had just started to rain, sleet when i left home so the roads were starting to get bad. i was just east of bellefountain on rt. 33 when my dad called me to make sure that i was alright. i put my cell phone down, looked up, turned the wheel to go around a soft curve in the road and my car started to spin/fishtail. i tried to correct it but the roads were too slick and i ended up first hitting the front left side of my car with the guard rail and then i kept spinning and hit the back left side of my car with the guard rail too. it had been no longer than a minute and a half when i talked to my dad and i was already calling him back to tell him what had just happened. he just sat there silent for the first few seconds.. i didn't think that he believe me... and then he started to talk. i haven't found out what the cost of the damage is but it's not going to be a cheap fix, if it gets fixed at all. my dad seems to think that there is a possibility it could be totalled depending on if there is something wrong with the engine. the tow truck came and got my and i arrived in versailles around 9:45 pm.

i went out later that night with ryan and we met up with some people at the minster bowling alley - peter, tim, janel, krista, steph, stephen and a few others. we took a drive to mcdonalds and went through the drive-through about 15 minutes before they closed with everyone ordering something different and paying with seperate money. we were really obnoxious, which made it that much more fun - but all that more annoying for the mcdonalds worker. we went back to the bowling alley for a few mintues and then went to this spieles kid's house in town. ahhh, there house was so freakin cool... it was really nice but not overly extravagant where you were afraid to touch something. anyway, saturday night was another fun night. sunday i went to church and then headed back to ashland around 2:30 (booo...).

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Wright State..... HERE I COME

On Good Friday my mom, dad and I went to wright state for a campus visit. I must say, I was quite impressed with everything. They have done a lot of updating and building of new facilities and I was just completely stunned at how nice everything was. They are celebrating their 40th anniversary this year, so since they are a fairly new college even the "old" buildings aren't in that bad of shape. The nursing building is really new and was awesome inside... On the tour we got to see some of the residence halls. They are soo much better than Ashland's it's not even funny. I was debating on if i should live on campus or live at home but after visiting the dorms and being at home for four days this weekend... i am definitely going to live on campus. I'll get to meet a lof more people that way too.

The next step is to send them my final transcript once finals are over. They will do a final evaluation of credits to determine which ones will transfer. After that they will assign me an advisor and I will go to campus to meet with them to schedule classes. Hopefully I can still get out in four years. . . I'm really hoping!

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

so close . . .

Easter break is SO close and i absolutely cannot wait for it to get here... for many reasons:

1- I get to go home... duh
2- I get to visit Wright State on Friday and find out which of my credits will transfer and those that won't
3- I'm going to do something Marissa... although i still have to call her and figure out exactly what.
4- I get to hang out with all my friends
5- NO HOMEWORK

...and speaking of homework, that is all i have been doing today. I only have one class on tuesdays and it got cancelled today because we had our spring convocation for the university. I got up early, 8am, took a shower and started on homework. I guess it's about time since i've been putting off all my work for a very long time... but i am really proud of myself for actually sticking to my "to do list" and not making some lame excuse to go to mansfield or wal-mart for a couple hours.

There have been a few things bothering me lately. It starts with my boss at the rec center. She and I have a fairly good relationship and she is an amazing person and supervisor but i just feel like she is trying way too hard to get me to stay at ashland. I've went back and forth a few times with her telling her that i was transfering and then saying i wasn't. When i told her that i was more than likely going to transfer to wright state and be a male nurse she started to question my decision. Her concern was if i was acutally making the right decision for the right reasons and not making a decision just to make one. Her concern is very valid and i have asked myself this question too, but i really feel like i am finally making the right choice. I want to be in a profession that is fulfilling and where i am able to make a difference but at the same be in a profession that is versitle where i am not doing the same thing and dealing with the same people/patients all the time. I want job security but i also want a job that pays well. I've always liked the sciences and math in school and for those reasons (and a few others) i feel that the profession of nursing and I would be a good fit. ... but it just hit me that everything i'm saying is what I want... not what God wants me to do. I've been driftng away from Him these past few months and i can definitely see things changing in my life that reflect that. At the same time I feel that it is SO hard to be a "good catholic" at school. It doesn't seem the people here are really concerned with their faith - which is one of the reasons i came to ashland... to grow in my faith. Whenever i do meet some people who are into their faith they are almost NEVER freshman rather juniors or seniors and i don't feel like i really connect with them. I don't know... i just have all these thoughts going through my head and i don't know what to make of them. If there is one thing to make of all this, it is to realize how unique, special and awesome my friends are back home. I honestly could not ask for better people. There are probably only 4 people here at ashland that i would consider to be up to their caliber.

Another situation that has been bothering me lately is with my job in admissions. Yes, I know... it's really ironic that i'm a tour guide but yet im transferring, which is where the "situation" comes in to play. My boss in admissions asked those of us who were working in the office the other day if we were all coming back to work next year. Inside my head i was thinkg, "ohhhh shit.. what the heck do i tell her." After everyone said yes she finally looked at me and i just looked back at her with a blank stare and then choked back my saliva and uttered that i was probably coming back. She was like "Well, how about we make that a yes" and i just sat there not saying anything... I don't know why im so afraid to tell her that im transferring - i mean ashland doesn't even have nursing so i would have to transfer anyway. The truth is, even if i wasn't changing my major i would still transfer, which is why i think i feel a bit guilty. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE working in admissions... the people are a lot of fun and i love giving tours (yes, i do say all good things about the university) but ashland is just NOT for me. The academics portion of the university is great but the social life is just terrible. For one, practically everyone goes home on the weekend because most people are from cleveland or columbus which is only an hour away. Also, I need a place that is more exciting and closer to home. This 3 hr drive to and from home/school absolutely sucks. I also feel like i haven't met many people that are like me. I think im a pretty unique guy in that i like the arts (plays, musicals) i like playing sports a lot better than watching them, i like to be into my faith and i'm not a person who wants to go and get drunk every weeknd. I feel like at Ashland you are either "in" or you're not. I feel that the only two types of people here are the drunken jocks or the brilliant nerds (ok, perhaps a bit of an exaggeration... but still...

I just have to keep telling myself to hang in there... only about a month left and i will be free of this place.

I apologize for the long post and the spewing of all my random and pointless thoughts.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

A New Realization

It has just hit me that there are only 6 weeks of school left. As much as I don't really like Ashland, I hate to admit that I will miss certain parts:
1- i have met some of the most amazing people EVER. aka Molly Gehring... I am really going to miss our highly intellectual and spiritual conversations during lifeguarding.
2- the food... #1 Dining Serivice in the Nation!
...and that's about it. Sad, I know . . .

These six weeks are going to fly by... i have to go home the first 3 weeks in april. First weekend is for easter, the following i'm getting lifeguard re-certified and then im immediatly leaving to go to a ben folds concert at OWU and the following weekend after that (21st, 22nd) i'm coming home for my Godson's baptism - yes, i AM a Godparent... some of you are surprised, i know. haha.

I just can't wait to be finished with school at Ashland, and school in general. I remember this same feeling last year as I was finishing my senior year of high school. I couldn't wait to be finished with all my sports so that i could just relax and "enjoy life" Everyone always told me High School would be some of the greatest years of my life, but i never belived them. However, i have now come to the realization that they could not have been more accurate.

Monday, March 26, 2007

My new favorite songs.

I've recently discovered some new songs that are really good - atleast i think so. My sister got the new Sugarland CD so she let me download it to my iTunes. I've just been listening to the cd over and over because i like it so much. However, i do have a few favorites: Settlin', Happy Ending, Want To, April Showers and County Line. I haven't been listening to a lot of country music lately but i am really starting to enjoy it again.
For some easy listening music while doing homework i really like matt nathanson's songs Suspended, Sad Songs and Bent. Also, Boston by Augustana, 100 years by Five for Fighting, Fast Car by Tracy Chapman, Walking in Memphis by Marc Cohn, Girl From Athens by Pay Mcgee Band, the whole Lifesong CD by Casting Crowns - esp In Me and Stained Glass Masquerade - are all really good.

One of the first weekends i was on campus CAB hosted a Randi Driscoll concert. I really debated on whether to go or not but i wasn't doing anything else so i decided to go. I was expecting this horrible cabaret performance from some stupid artist but i was actually pleasently surprised. One, she was rreally, really, really good looking and two, she could actually sing. Her music is a little different but i really like it. Two of her good songs are Lucky and Lies.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

SCHOOL = HELL

I loathe school. I hate Ashland and all the stupid idiots that go here. I had so much fun this weekend that it was so hard to come back - i can't wait to go home for easter break.

Weekend At Home

After a lot of debating on whether or not it would be worth it to come home Friday night, I decided that it would. I left ashland at 12:21 and got home around 2:35am . . . so i made really good time (it takes my parents 3 hrs and me 2.5 hrs on a typical trip). I got up early Saturday morning to meet meghann and her friend, amy - who lives in chicago - for coffee at 9:30. It was really good to see them and they had a few funny stories about amy's first trip to the VILLAGE of VERSAILLES. (Upon coming into to town amy asked meghann where all the tall buildings were and meghann replied . . . uhh, there aren't any. haha). Then I came home and went to Jocelyn's house about 1:00 to visit. I left there about 1:45 and went to greenville to meet up with marissa at broadway joes, which is an awesome coffee shop - a lot cooler than what i was expecting. We had a great time talking about random things and catching up. We talked for two hours and actually ended up closing broadway joes at 4 as we were the last ones to leave - but it was all good because marissa works there. Needless to say I can't wait to hang out with her again. I went to church with mom at 5 and then Danielle and I ordered Sideliners for dinner after mom and dad went to visit grandma and grandpa. At 8:30 i went to kathy hoying's house and hung with everyone there - a lot of people i didn't really know.

Today, Sunday, has been a GREAT day . . . I have not done a single thing besides shower, eat and sleep. Actually, as I write this I'm sitting outside on our porch enjoying the weather we are having - it's awesome.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Life's Good


Life has been treating me well lately and I sure am enjoying it. Here's why:

--I talked with Marissa last night for a good while and we are going to Broadway Joe's on saturday to have coffee. I must say, I am pretty excited... especially since I haven't seen in her such a long time.

--This week, although I have a serious lack of motivation, class has been pretty interesting. I haven't caught myself dozing off in accounting or thinking about a conspiracy to make my religion teacher stop talking - one class he said 'um' 55 times in a 5 minute period...

-- In my Information Technology class I tonight we had a test over excel, which is notorious for failing grades. I, however, feel that I did really well and finished earlier than most people in my class. I couldn't help but notice the frustrated expressions on my classmates faces as I left.

--I'm going home tomorrow night to see my friends and family, but most importantly Kameron -aka Kam Man. I really do miss the little guy. Whenever I call home I always ask to talk to him and i love to hear the excitement in his voice as he says "Hi Zach!" I ask him some simple questions... what he's doing, what he ate for lunch and dinner, how his little 'brudder' (brother) is and my favorite part of the conversation comes at the end. After I tell him I love him, and he I, he hands the phone back to mom - his grandma- and says "It's ZACH!" ... I can just see his smile and excitement as he hands the phone back... and I love hearing the sound of him running to the door with a big smile to greet me as I come home. He is the little brother I never had but always wanted . . . :)

--I have pretty damn good friends... and a kickass family.

-- The bucks pulled through and beat the Vols 85-84. You bet I'll be watchin' them play Memphis on Saturday.

----I think it's really improtant for us to try and focus on the good things in life. Personally, I tend to spend a little too much time thinking about the bad things that I don't give much thought to the good things. Recent family events has shed light and made me realize that people make mistakes, no one is perfect, everyone deserves to be loved ...and God is GREAT! By realizing these things hopefully we are better able to focus on the good things instead of the bad ...and for the first time in a very long time I can honestly say . . . life's good!

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

My First Post

Ah, I am now entering the blogging world. . . If you were to ask me why I would say "Uhhhh . . . " and just stare at you with a blank look. So, I really don't know why other than I now have a dumping grounds for my thoughts, which are often hard to put into words. With that being said, I just now realized that I may be going mad so if you don't see me in the next few days, weeks, months, years - you should probably make sure I'm not dead :) haha, just kidding . . .


Anyway... on to some substantial information. I have currently diagnosed myself as having the college "freshmenitis." Everyone just got back from spring break and now all of a sudden I have this HUGE lack of motivation to be productive. (I just randomly thought of the Cher song "If I could turn back Time..." LORD, help me, I seriously have gone mad). I had accounting homework that was due monday and i have yet to do it... along with the homework that was due today. My reading for Exploring the Bible is piling up as well because I haven't opened my Bible in the last 3 weeks (I'll just look all the answers up on the internet when test time rolls around - our test only consist of 2 essay questions that he gives us 3 weeks in advance and we are allowed to bring one-side of a sheet full of notes). My reading for English Comp. II I have yet to do as well - Spark Notes always comes in handy :) However, the one thing I have been doing well lately is eating! I worked in the Rec Center as a Lifeguard over spring break and since our dining hall wasn't open i had to eat food that i brought back from home. This mostly consisted of doritos, soup, grapes, yogurt, Jimmy Dean breakfast sandwiches, girl scout cookies, crackers, and other not so healthy food. I was never so happy to walk into convo than after practically starving myself for a week...

In other news, I decided that I am going home for the weekend. I thought that since I spent a week of hell here at Ashland all by myself, I deserve to go home and see my family and friends. Speaking of friends, I just came in contact with one of my long lost pals Marissa Finch. We were in the same lifeguard certification class two years ago and then worked together at the Y during my senior year. We hadn't spoke since the winter of 2005/2006 and i randomly got an email from her a few days ago. We've just emailed a few times back and forth but I will hopefully see her this weekend when I come home so that we are able to catch up on each others lives. It's weird how those things work out . . .

That's all for now folks, peace out!